A Fresh Start

July 9, 2013·


sunrise photo by me.

Sometimes I tend to take on too much. I don’t say no very easily. One of my biggest fears is letting people down. I just want to please people.

But then I realize when I go through spurts of doing that too much, I realize that I become less ME. I start to lose a part of myself. I start to feel “off.” And then I can’t be the wife that I should be. Or the friend that I should be. Or the sister I should be. Or the blogger I should be. Or the employee I should be. Or the ________ I should be.

And then I start to feel like I’m letting people down.

Which is my biggest fear.

And it’s a vicious cycle.

And then I realize that I start to get so focused on myself and what I’m doing and all of the things I’m trying to do for other people, that I start to lose sight of God – and that’s where my focus needs to be. I stop keeping my sight set on Him.

Because if my focus is first and foremost on the Lord, then everything else always seems to get done. Everything seems to fall into place.

Sometimes we just need a little kick in the rear and a fresh perspective.

As I near my due date and as we near the next chapter of our lives as parents, I keep trying to remind myself of this.

I can’t do it all. I can’t be focused on 100 things at once. I need to be focused on the Lord first.

And so I am treating each day as a fresh start. What didn’t get done the day or night before will get done the next day. It’s okay.

With each day that the sun rises – it’s a chance to start new.

“From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets, the name of the LORD is to be praised.”  -Psalm 113:3